A Little Time

I just read the devotional for "Nurturing Great Kids" on the Bible app on this computer.  :)  Proverbs 18:19 is the day's reading.  " A brother offended...."

I am relatively sure that this verse will come back to me sometime soon.  My Bible reading is like that.  But for today, I have something else on my mind.

http://www.nbcnews.com/id/23014798/ns/health-behavior/t/your-marriage-going-get-worse-study-says/#.VYs5IEYYFnk

Lord, I first went to Today's Christian Woman, and the article there seemed superficial and bland.  The article above was more helpful to me.  In essence, it summarizes what I am feeling: that DH's idiosyncrasies and "weirdnesses" are more annoying to me than they used to be.

I have taken, and am taking, an emotional beating this year.   Job satisfaction and appreciation in my profession are at a low.  I am not as "good" as I once believed I was.  There have been a lot of criticisms this year.

And I am feeling it.

So do these two things connect?  I will leave that question open and I await Your answer.  I really will await it.  I will be alert to those messages that busy-ness may otherwise cause me to miss.

And I need to finish now because DH will be home in a very few minutes.

Help, Lord.  I don't like the way I have become.

Contemplating Change

When I stop to pray, dear Father, I almost always find my mind believing that whatever ELSE comes into my head is more urgent than prayer.  What a lie.  I just went hunting for my resume, which I was told was NOT a requirement for today, instead of staying here with You.

So, first, let me thank You for a splendid, spectacular day for the girls' graduation party.  It seemed like it included the entire wide span of ages well.  Most significantly, You appeared to divert the rain and thunderstorms that were clearly forecast for that day.  Until the day before, it looked like a wet party.  You are gracious in even the small and seemingly unimportant details of our lives--a party??--and we need (I need) to trust You in the big ones.

And perhaps this change that I am contemplating is one of those big ones.  I am tired of DMH and WRCH.  I feel useless, hopeless, and very much unappreciated (maybe not so much that last one, but I may need to deal with that issue separately).  I don't feel that the gifts of psychological healing that You seem to have given to me are being used most effectively.  I feel that I am fighting powers of darkness--oh my, what did I just say?--and I am not winning.  

Or are we?

Nevertheless, I look at this opportunity to take a different path as an exploration arranged by You.  I hope that is accurate.  Here I am at the cusp of my 59th birthday.  I have long planned to do more private practice in my later years, and the landscape of private practice has changed enough that being in a group practice with prescribing psychiatrists and team backup is wise.  

Lord God, You know that I want to be where You direct.  This foray into a new possibility may be nothing more than confirmation that I need to stay put, or it may be the next step in my professional life and ministry for You.  I don't know how to prepare.  I will leave to You (the Holy Spirit) to put the words in my mouth that are appropriate for the moment.  I will leave the outcome in Your hands.  I--no, You--are the focus of this endeavor, and may You be glorified even with people of different cultures and backgrounds in that practice.

May Your will be done and may You be lifted up and glorified.  In Jesus's name~~Amen.

Top Secret

Lord God, I am becoming either very irritable OR irritated by my husband.  I will try to outline the issues at a later time, but in this post I am confessing.  It has been very hard.  I don't know whether he is just making stupid decisions lately or whether he is losing some of his mental sharpness and speed or whether I am the one at fault.  It isn't pretty.  Please, please help me.  How to react or respond in a loving manner and not be obsequious or blindly accepting of certain choices and behaviors is the challenge, I think.  It would likely get old to be wrong most of the time.  For me to have to be so emphatic in order to have him take me seriously is--the word for the first day of our New York graduation trip--disrespectful.  I don't want to be that way!  It seems, however, that making my point in any less forceful way is impossible.  In the language of deafness, his threshold of hearing is pretty high.

In Jesus's name, please make my marriage stronger!  Amen.

Mixed Day

Lord, I started to write about today, but it was too upsetting.  I get lots of positive praise from the patients, and then I get a really accusatory email--actually, several--from the director of social work about not telling her about discharges that were not even 24 hours "old."  

So, I am just going to go to bed.  If it is time for me to leave DMH, would You make a way?  

In Jesus's name~~Amen.

Strange

Is it strange, Lord, that the prospect of prayer seems daunting?  In much the same way as a to-do list can be so intimidating that I cannot even do one thing, sometimes considering prayer has the same effect.  "I'm not doing the most important thing" or "I have so much to pray about; how am I to choose what is most effective?"

So, most times, even if I do pray, I feel that it is, and I am, inadequate.  Teach me to pray, Jesus! "Our Father"...ah, great place to start.  Father!  Not by first birth, but by being born again, by second birth.  Some would say by adoption.  In my Facebook feed today, a woman who has adopted a girl from China wrote about "Gotcha Day."  What a great title for a special occasion.  You "got" me.  For better or for worse, maybe more truly for better AND for worse.  I can be a difficult "child."

Well, one thing I definitely want to pray about is the killing of my Christian brothers (not too many sisters are making the news) by ISIS.  It chills my heart and makes me cry out in distress.  Lord, is there nothing that can stop them?  (I almost wrote "these maniacs?")  They truly believe that they are bringing about faithfulness to ... Allah?  God?  A better way of life?  How deluded!  Or are we Westerners more deluded by our comfortable and tolerant lives, and philosophies, and social culture?  There are times, I admit, that I respect the moral code that Muslims embrace--that is, until I read about their taking heathen women as sex slaves.  Where does that fit in?  Or how does killing "people of the Cross" further Islam?  Somehow, they believe that purging the world of "infidels" is honoring to the god of their religion.  To me, honestly and in the privacy of this journal, it sounds like the god of their religion is a god who celebrates death and violence and power, not life and love and welcome.

So, dear Father, have mercy on Your other children who are in the way of harm and who are still attempting to remain faithful in the face of this threatening persecution.  When I think ....

(Hubby came home suddenly and I didn't finish this post!)

One Yes, One Not Yet

Ahh, dear God, I am anxious.  It is hard to wait for Your response about Amy's job.  My heart wants Messiah for a number of (what I think are) good reasons.  :)  Some of those good reasons have to do with family relationships: her sister Julie's proximity in Philadelphia, her grandmother's desire to have her as close as possible (the other options are South Carolina and Iowa), and her father's similar desire to have her close.  I am trying to be open-minded and open-handed about Your will.  I don't know how well I am succeeding.  So, what do I really want to ask You?

• May Your will be done, first, last, and in between.
• Would You see fit to have her at Messiah?  She reported that it is, perhaps, the "best" of the schools insofar as student development, residential life, and institutional health are concerned.  She also reported, however, that there will be more discipline problems there than at the other two schools.
• We value family relationships!  At least on my side of the family, and also, if to a slightly lesser degree, on George's.  For my mother's sake, would You answer her prayer for Amy to be in Pennsylvania?  I don't know whether Grandma would get down to PA, but it would certainly be easier for Amy to come "home" for holidays and breaks to bless her grandmother.
• You know that I sometimes worry about Julie's lack of Christian fellowship.  Having Amy only two hours away, and having the possibility of their spending some time together, would be one way that Julie could be in touch with a strong and Godly and amazing woman--her sister.  So, for Julie's sake, would You put Amy at Messiah?

I would be all right traveling to and visiting Iowa.  :)  Anderson in South Carolina is not as healthy a school as the other two colleges/universities, but I wondered about its proximity to Atlanta.

No matter what, dear God, thank You for the encouragement that these on-campus interviews have been to my daughter.  We surrender to Your will and Your calling on her life.  In Jesus's name~~Amen.

PS  The "one yes" is Julie's apartment lease.  Thank You!  I am relieved.

One More Hour

I have craved these alone times, Lord.  I don't want them to last forever; I just need one day every so often, maybe monthly, when I don't have someone -- read "husband" -- looking over my shoulder.  I need the time alone to write, pray, be honest, and be randomly productive.  :) 


Prayer for Julie's apartment search: near success!  I don't want to give up praying, because the inked signature is not on the contract yet.  Lord, please guard that apartment for Julie.  It sounds perfect, especially since both she and we are impressed by it.  :)  And please provide everything she needs to live there.  It is going to take a fair amount of effort no matter where she moves.

Prayer for Amy's job search: two down, one to go.  Please lead her and guide her in the path that You have charted for her.  Give her discernment about the right place for her, where she can be best used by You, without regard for the distance.  We will handle that by Your provision and grace!  Provide her with wisdom and with everything that she will need to make her home there.

Lord, I ask all of this in Your name, for the Father's glory, and in the power and heart of the Holy Spirit~~Amen!

Woe to You...!

Good morning, dearest God.  I have been trying with moderate success to keep up with my Lenten Bible reading plan.  I think it was Monday, when I was driving to the North Shore to visit a group home and day program for a patient, that I was listening on the road.  "Woe to you, scribes, Pharisees, and hypocrites!"

Scribes struck me as funny since the "scribe" role at work on the treatment team is an impossible job for me to do with my impaired hearing.  It is also a role not well embraced by anyone, really.  Woe, indeed!

Then the hypocrites struck me hard.  I have continued to struggle--why?--with the confusing and diminished responsibilities and respect I encounter at work.  This week an offer for an early retirement incentive for non-direct-care state employees was floated.  Oh, did my heart leap!  If this were to be extended to me, I would take it.  My only small grief concerns the patients.  Otherwise, I would be outta there.  (But then there are the random compliments and appreciations that confuse me!)

Which brings me to a pleading prayer...show me if this is what You are directing me to do, God.  Father!  Lord and Beloved Friend.  I do NOT want to do anything rash or thoughtless and I definitely do NOT want to displease You.  I could envision jobs that I could do that would bless many and hopefully work more effectively for Your kingdom.  Please reveal to me what Your plan is.  I admit to coveting and lusting for this release, but I will persevere for Your sake.

Distraction, but a Godly one, I think--and on a few levels:  Went to look for the verses that KM, a patient at work, vaguely referenced last week.  I recalled the verses from James 1, but those from Romans 5 might be better.  Not only for her~~~

                  Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.  (James 1:2-4 NASB)

                  Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.  (Romans 5:3-5 ESV)

Not to mention the Bible Gateway Verse of the Day:
  
Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting! (Psalm 139:23-24 ESV)

I think I hear You, Lord.

Tiffany and Her Dad

Lord, Tiffany is so worried about her dad, who lives in Vermont and at least to my mind has a serious dual-disorder of substance abuse and mental illness.  Please intervene.  It causes her a lot of understandable anxiety, and she is powerless to do anything.  (Unfortunately, the system may be powerless to anything, either.)  But You are not powerless.  I know that You will never force Yourself on anyone, but please pester him and the people who need to step in to help him.  In Jesus's name~~Amen.
And PS~Please assure Tiffany that You are on the job.  Put her mind and her heart at rest with the Philippians 4 "peace that passes all understanding."  Again~Amen.

Lia

I am always honored when people ask for prayer, Lord, and I try to commit something to (in this case) cyber-writing so that I can say in truth that I have prayed.  Please comfort Lia and Manny in the loss, or the pending loss, of their pet dog.  Our fur-kids become so dear to us.  Thank You that they are people of faith and that their lives reflect service to others.  Make this parting easy, although any death brings a degree of pain to the loved ones left behind.  In Jesus's name~~Amen.

Fifteen

Lord God, I have NO idea why the number 15 sticks in my head.  I would like to enumerate 15 things that I want to bring into our conversation this morning.  I think I won't have any trouble getting to that number, and beyond. 

1. Lent: I want to do something memorable and meaningful for Lent this year (and, truth be told, every year).  What would You like?  (I almost said, "What would You suggest," but that would ot give You the respect that You deserve.)
2.  My dear, "curious" husband George; He just has to go to the Bahamas to see his brother this winter.  I am not certain whether the push is to go to the Bahamas, to get out of this snowy, stormy, winter in New England, or to see his only bro.  He admitted that part of his push to retire early is his fear that he, like his father and his grandfather, will die at a relatively young age.  Serious thoughts.  Is there something I need to do, under Your direction, to encourage him?
3.  My first: Amy and her job search and finishing graduate school.  And leading that trip to Mexico.  And, as I have for many years, essentially since her birth, her (possible, by Your will) future husband.
4.  My second: Julie and her finishing undergraduate school and her future job in inner-city Philadelphia.  That "inner-city" stuff strikes fear into my heart, which is of course indicative that I am not trusting You to direct her and protect her.  I do, Lord.  Please help her in particular to find an affordable and safe place to live--not in that order--and preferably by herself, at her own request.  And more than all of that, please keep her (or draw her) close to You.  She is disgusted with some of the modern church.  I was thinking "people, practices, arrogance, snobbiness, failure to reach out, failure to understand" but it is really all of the above.
5.  My mother: I will write about her in another place.
6.  Heritage: so frustrating!  I am not at all sure how to deal with this, and I definitely, more than ever, need You to bridle my tongue.  I could use a God-sized infusion of wisdom, too.  "Finesse...."  That comes from work, but it has never been my strong suit in any area of my life.
7.  Interpersonal relationships and friendships:  Horrible.  Again, as I look back over my life, this area has never been an area of strength.  I may need a bit of focus on this in my time with You.  I sometimes recall that You had people who adored You--and some who hated You.  Not sure what to make of that when it comes to Your being my example!  ;)
8.  More sins: Sarcasm...
9.  Judgmentalism...
10.  Laziness
11.  Disorganization...
12.  (Getting to 15!)  PRIDE, my worst...
13.  Carelessness with money...
14.  Failure to keep the 1st commandment 1st...
15.  Failure to keep the Sabbath?

 That "Sabbath" sin is a tough one.  "For the Son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath."  Matthew 12:8  This, in the context of Jesus's plucking grain to feed His disciples....  I will try much harder, Lord, to "keep the Sabbath holy."


This darned cat is demanding my attention.  I will go play with her for a bit.  Later, Lord--please keep me to that promise.
 

Struggling at Work

About time I prayed about this, God.  I am growing--no, I think I already dislike, perhaps even hate, work.  The weird thing is that I love working with the patients.  And, humbly (!), I think I may be pretty good at what I do with them.

But since I did not get promoted, I have been bitter.  There.  I have said it.  And the craziest part of that is my dislike and even disgust at the responsibilities (if that is the correct term for the job duties) that a "D" has.  I get frustrated, even old-ladyish, at the silliness of the social workers who ... don't like me?  I get the sense that those who interviewed me are avoiding me.  With the exception of Tom (who, by the way, did not interview me), I don't think any of the Ds have said more than a dozen words to me at any time since the interview.  It sticks in my mind that Jackie completely ignored a scheduled supervision session with me when she is usually so particular about appointments and meetings--and I was parading right outside of the office where she was talking, and I was making a good bit of noise.

So no wonder, I guess, that I have decathected (haha) from work.  If I got another job at the same or higher salary, with similar benefits, I would take it instantly.  Retirement is not far from my mind most times.  I complain a lot.  I get angry at the unfair treatment of the patients.

And I recall Jack's accidental teaching on "nunc  dimitis."  At the time, I thought it referred to church--and perhaps it does.  But more and more, I wonder if it referred to work.  I am dismissed?  Am I dismissed?

But, Lord, You do say that "Whatever [I] do, work at it with all [my] heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters.":Colossians 3:23  Please make it so.  I can't.

In Jesus's name~Amen.

Hi, Lord

Yes, I am tired.  No excuse, though, for not spending a little time with You!

Sometimes I think that a "Quiet Time" or "devotions" means making a prayer list, as if it were a to-do list for You.  And I fear that many people treat prayer like that.  What I want, dear God, is to use these times to listen, to learn, to let You let me get to know You better.  What makes Your heart beat?  "Break my heart for what breaks Yours."  And help my heart to beat in synchrony with Yours.

Oh, Psalm 1:1-3 captures it.  How blessed...  am I.  Help me to be like that blessed man. Please draw me away from the counsel of the wicked, and direct my steps away from the path of sinners.  May I not sit in the seat of scoffers.  (What would that mean, anyway?)  Make me like that tree, firmly planted and fruitful.  Water me with the living waters from You.  May my leaf not wither, and may I prosper, not for myself but to bring glory to You and You to the world.  In Jesus's name~~Amen.

Ten Short Minutes

Not enough by a long shot, Lord.  But something.  And I have believed more lately than earlier in my life that something is far better than nothing at all.

This one should go under the Tricia's Trivia blog, but I just wrote about the confirmation about prayer in Julie's Guyana trip examples.  Did prayer help those New England Patriots win last week?  Two come-from-behind examples with the capstone of the win.  Exhausting emotionally, and yes, spiritually.  Why on earth did it matter so much to me?  I had to open my hands, literally, and surrender my deep desire for them to win.  And then they won.

It does not feel as intense, Lord, this week.  Perhaps I was just wrung out of most of the fan emotion last week and I have not replenished.  However, it would be delightful, and again symbolic, for the Patriots to come out on top in this AFC Championship.  It would be even nicer since Julie is home this weekend and she and her father so bond over football.  It is NOT great that Amy is in Indiana, where the "enemy" resides.  Protect her!  I don't think she is in any physical danger, but emotionally and socially it might be a tough ride whether the Pats win--or lose.  (It might make it a little easier for her to be gracious if they win, though?)  So, please let them win!

My verses to memorize, in reflection on my prayers for my daughters (and, for that matter, my husband): Psalm 91:9-12

9  Because you have made the Lord your dwelling place--the Most High, who is my refuge--

10  no evil shall be allowed to befall you, no plague come near your tent.

11  For He will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways

12  On their hands they will bear you up, lest you strike your foot against a stone.

Amen and amen!!

Various and Sundry

Lord, those dang Patriots!!  I get so anxious about them!  So I decided on the way home tonight to commit them and the next game to You in prayer.  I don't really know how to pray for a football team.  Do I pray that they win?  I'd like that, of course!  I pray that they play well.  That they do their best.  As the posts all over Facebook say, that they would each "do their job" and be a shining example that it is not just a superstar in any position but the sum of all the parts that brings success.  I do ask that You protect everyone from injury--even the Ravens--and it just seems symbolically fitting in this difficult season of world history that Patriots and patriotism be honored.  Not the kind of patriotism of the fanatical and extremist religious terrorists, but a faithfulness to a collective entity that upholds peace and respect and fair play.  So--Could they win?  :)

Martha from work: She is going to be out for 5-6 weeks, which sounds a lot like recovery from surgery.  She seems to have some faith in You, Lord.  Whether or not, though, would You bless her during this time?  Her "irreverence" is charming at times, maybe annoying at a few, but I will miss her and it.

Stephen from work: Prostate cancer.  Having surgery sometime next week.  Avoiding me, I think.  Oh, well, no matter--would You bless him, too?  He has two sons who still need him around.  Give him grace and relief from anxiety.   Take that cancer totally out of his body, please, and don't allow it to come back.

All for the sake of the name of Jesus, and in His name!  Amen.

Thankful for My Daughters

Lord, I know that I have a very limited time here.  I definitely want, however, to lay the travels of my girls before You.  Both will be traveling today, and early tomorrow morning the rain/snow is supposed to start and change over to snow.  By plan, both will be home by the time things get started.  And by plan, both parents may be home as well.

But "the mind of man plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps." Proverbs 16:9.  Please direct the steps of my daughters as they come home for Thanksgiving.  And then both of them will be traveling over the next 6-7 weeks to other countries.  Please direct their steps in those journeys as well.  What excitement for them!  Seeing how You are at work abroad is just part of their preparation, I believe, for their service to You.  But--my protective mother's heart strains at letting them go so far.  Did You feel that way when You let Jesus come to earth, where You were certain that *we* would kill Him?  

I have much to do, and little time to do it.  Thank You for the blessing of this computer and this blog, where I can capture my thoughts.  Isn't that another verse?  2 Corinthians 10:5 "...and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."  May my thoughts be obedient to You.  Amen!

Punch List of Prayer

• Bobby and Heather and the pregnancy
• Mom's eyes, her grief on this anniversary
• Terri and her endurance with Mom
• My husband, sometimes crazy and forgetful and not always intuitive
• My daughters
• Amy: trip to Wales and Europe, direction on post-graduation job
• Julie: endurance for the rest of the semester, Guyana, TFA Philadelphia
• MOPS, church, Junior Church

Be Careful What You Pray For

Yup.  I asked for it.

In my previous post, too long ago, I asked You, Lord, to help me with my pride.  (Why has it taken me so long to get back here?)  Well, You did.  Perhaps one of the biggest slams to my self-confidence has occurred.  I "pride" myself on being a good clinical social worker.  I applied to become a Clinical Social Worker D, thinking in the back of my mind that I would be a shoo-in for it.

And I didn't get it.

(So, to rub salt into my own wound, I just checked my work email.)

Humility and humiliation are close relatives.  I do feel humiliated.  I also feel rejected, unappreciated, misunderstood, and lonely.  Yes, lonely.  I can't explain that feeling--or maybe I can--but it's there.

The reasons that I was given:

• I didn't "present well."
• I didn't speak about my weaknesses.  ( I KNOW this to be untrue.  I brought them up myself in the first interview.)
• I "didn't want the position as much as my competitor did."  (How did they know that?)

Oh, and a fourth--I was" feeling pretty confident."  Again, untrue, and how do they think they know that?

Okay, my anger is showing.  Back to humility and pride and being put in my place.  In many ways, I am reaping what I have sown.  I have said on several occasions that I did not want to work in close proximity to the director.  I have been very blunt in my criticisms of the administration.  I have called out the people in charge on several, if not many, stupid decisions.  I deserved NOT to get this position.

To continue in a position of humility will require more than I have, Lord.  I cannot do it in my own strength.  Please tamp down my anger and allow me to respond in a Godly way.  I keep thinking of Joseph and the incredibly unfair and undeserved treatment he received.  (I deserve mine, and perhaps in his innocence and inconsideration for others he deserved a piece of his, too.)  What did Joseph say?  Genesis 50:20

"You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives."

May it be so, Lord.  May it be so.  May it be for good to accomplish Your will and Your work not only in me--perhaps most necessarily in me--but in saving many others as well.

Session with God

No clients tonight, Lord.  This is not a bad thing!  I rather look forward to a night to spend talking a bit to You.

I guess I have a laundry list of prayers.  Sorry.  When I say I will pray, I mean to keep my word.

• Bobby and Heather and baby conceived: Dearest Father, You love life.  You have gifted us with life, especially eternal life.  As Bobby and Heather cling to the beginning life they have helped You to create, please protect the tiny one inside.  It's early in the process--only 5 or 6 weeks.  (Progesterone injections appear to be indicated only for those who have "preterm births" which I didn't think was the same as a miscarriage.) 
• Mom and Jennifer (Power-Penwell): What??!?  She is "anonymously" calling Wanda and calling her a b****, wishing for her death, accusing Wanda of ruining her life?  As if Jen isn't fully -- hasn't already done a bang-up job on her own.  

Lord, I also have not recovered yet from the insult from the pastor of the church.  I am better, though.  I still cannot sit through his sermon, but with having to substitute in Grade 2 this week, I didn't have to.  (And I SO enjoyed teaching that small class of 7!)  Humility, Lord, right?  <grimace>

"Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit.  Rather, in humility value others above yourselves."  Philippians 2:3

So, in reality, I am smarter than many people but that does not necessarily mean that I am better.  I am ... what?  Faster-thinking?  More logical?  Oy.  This humility thing is a little more complicated than I would have thought.  Correct assessment is not the same as being proud, or humble.

My head is getting confused.

All right, Lord.  It is getting later, and I should go get some food and get home.  Help with humility, dear God.  I do want to abandon my pride.  Yes--and no.  To be honest.  But I want to be close to You, and You don't like pride.

Darned Keys

Lord, so often I say that I will pray, but then I get busy and distracted and don't actually do it.  So, I have lost my work keys.  Or You have hidden them from me so that I can sit here and actually trust You to show me where they are.  My eyes hurt.  My head is cluttered.  When this happens, I typically just waste time with games.  But no, not this time.  Please help me to think clearly, to retrace my steps, to use wisdom and grace in dealing with others who might have told me in error that my keys were not there when (hopefully!) they are.

I need a day off anyway.  Maybe I have a virus?  A retreat would be nice.  :)  A retreat at home would be even nicer....

Please, dear Father, send an angel to bring me my keys, or bring me to my keys~

I, of course, want to end this prayer in the traditional, good-Christian way: "In Jesus's name."  In this case, it is for Jesus's sake and by the omniscience of the Holy Spirit, please?  Amen!