Now What?

Heavenly Father God, this title could be more appropriate after Thursday's hearing (Show Cause).  However, I need to embrace this "now what?" question today.  I feel a little paralyzed by the anxiety over the uncertainties, not only about the outcome but also about the process and the preparation.  I know and want to obey Your command/encouragement to "Be anxious for nothing BUT in everything with prayer...."  It's a bit harder (understatement!!) to "be anxious for nothing."  The uncertainties overwhelm me sometimes, and I fight to stay mindful in this moment and focus on accomplishing one thing before me.  In fact, I just noticed another hummingbird at the feeder, along with a bunch of sparrows, and I opened up my Goodreads app to note the three books I finished during this period of administrative leave.  Distracted much?  (The hummingbird is still there.)

I wonder how John the Baptist waited for what was ultimately his murder.  Or how Jesus got through the nights of knowing what lay ahead of him.  At least Jesus knew; I am not sure that brought Him any comfort or reduced any anxiety He might have felt in His human nature, but the uncertainty was not a factor.

Pick a Bible verse.  My current devotional plan comes from Proverbs, the book of wisdom.  Today's reading discussed discernment and insight.  A good prayer for me this week.  Holy Spirit, Wonderful Counselor, give me discernment, insight, and self-control to be "quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry."  (Thanks to our Sunday School memory verse for this reminder.)