Faithful God, I *can* always trust the wisdom of Your ways. I must confess that I often don't understand Your ways. I don't mean to be doubtful about this 3-month leave and the silence regarding the resolution that was promised sometime during the first week of September ("within two weeks" of the hearing date of August 24). Here I am, two months out from that promised decision, and the only thing I know is that "the situation is complicated." I am grateful that I continue to receive my full salary, that I can continue to volunteer and donate platelets and even take care of various house projects that have been neglected for months if not years.
You have never done things in an easily understandable way, though, have You? Most of the stories that I see in Scripture, both Old and New Testaments, are filled with plot twists and unexpected developments. Something You (Jesus) said to your disciples/apostles about how many times it would take for them to believe You just came to my mind. "How long shall I put up with you?" (Luke 9) Indeed. God, loving and wise God, You *always* know the end of the story and the path to that end. Sometimes the "end" may not be what I would call good, and in those times my own faith in Your faithfulness wavers. (Think Mosaic's closing, for example.) What is the Lauren Daigle song that says "When You don't give the answers/As I cry out to You, I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You."
I *will* trust in You. With gratitude. With confidence in Your love for me. With (not enough!) love in my heart for You.
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