Abba God, my heart is slow today to engage in some of these deep reflections. My eyes want to close; earlier, as I listened again to "Savior, Like a Shepherd Lead Us" and read again Pastor Job's question above, I cried. I think I do. Sometimes, though, Your will is not the easy path. (Ask Jesus.) Sometimes it requires not just the death of the body, but the death of hopes, aspirations, plans and anticipations. Sometimes, even, it may mean the death of a reputation.
Ah. But I count it ALL as loss. Philippians 3:8-10--and now I am crying again. I will copy this passage in another entry, soon, but now I will quit. I am overwhelmed and overcome with sadness. But my soul is being cleansed by my tears, and there will come a day when there won't be tears any more.
I love You, God, and yes, I do want to know Your will more than anything else.
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