Spiritual Discernment

 

What am I seeking in this soul-care time of prayer, reflection, and discernment? (from the LTI Retreat Guide) (one sentence only!)

Lord God, Adonai, Abba, I seek to know the path of Your choosing for my life in this fork in the road of my life.

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The women.  That is what jumped out at me at my first reading of Luke 24:13-35.  "...our women amazed us."  It doesn't surprise me very much that women are and were amazing, or that "Him they did not see."  Perhaps it is a gender-based quality, that famous or infamous "women's intuition," that allows many women to see Jesus and to grasp spiritual realities before the men do.  But the men finally get it.  "Then their eyes were opened and they recognized Him."  

Confession: I grow impatient with DH because he is slower to "get it" much of the time although it is without question that his heart is good and open.  Forgive me, Jesus.  I know in the Gospels that You sometimes grew impatient with Your apostles and disciples for not "getting it" even though they walked with You, saw first-hand the things that You had done, felt in Your presence Who You are in Your nature.  What would have happened if You had written them off?  What would have happened if You had written *me* off when I was slow to "get it"?  Increase my patience and my faith!

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Crossroad.  Exactly.  I have been standing, even sort of making a sitting area, at this juncture in the path while awaiting--what?  A Divine Pointer Finger?  Yes, maybe that.  While I am at this crossroad, Holy God, let me look around attentively, examining this place and seeing the details of the area and looking down each path to catch a glimpse of You.  Which path -- from which path -- are You beckoning?

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"Redemptive meaning was given to pain." Flora S. Wuellner.  May this be true in this experience, my Lord Adonai, dearest Abba.  Show me the redemptive meaning in this painful experience.  Redeem me, and then help me to share the meaning humbly and clearly where I need to share it.  Amen.