Happy Birthday, George! You made it to age 65.
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Sometimes, Abba, I admit that I see signs of slipping cognitive abilities; Tue commented that his father does not show good judgment from time to time, which Tue attributed to decline, and I was a little shocked at my recognition of similar slippage in DH.
I also find other signs, too, and some of them may be signs of spiritual slippage as well.
- Giving me things I do not want and/or I do not request. Reminds me of the sacrifice of Cain.
- Not getting me things I want, which are often specifically for the purposes of serving him as well as others. Reminds me of the televangelists and/or the spending of huge amounts of money for programs or features of a building to be impressive.
- The above is not exactly on point; DH actually does not focus on the external features of our home or our marriage, although I have noticed some increased attention to numbers of people, numbers of dollars, or the features of a church.
- Not caring about our sexual relationship until it somehow rises to the point that he misses it. (I want to cry about this one.) No concern for (probably) decades about my experience. Reminds me a great deal of the state of worship and church-hopping during my lifetime.
Probably enough for one entry, There might be more; in fact, as I write this, I can thing of one or two more issues right away. But for now, moving on~
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Stepping away from DH and noting thoughts from Amos and previous books of the Old Testament, I find myself weirdly saddened and comforted by how consistently Your people *fail* to follow You. Sometimes You report this behavior before it happens--and still You often bless them.
I think Your people are still doing this, Abba. May I not be counted among those who are faithless and hard-hearted, unrepentant and casual in my relationship with and to You.
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