Some Answered Prayers

Abba God, do You ever get tired (so to speak) of all my complaining? Much of my prayer lately has been complaining about all the bad, awful things that have happened over the past year. Over the past three days or so, there have been some breathtaking and tear-jerking answers to prayer that deserve to be noted:

• Julie: For our Mother's Day call, she seemed slightly discouraged about her job prospects. Then, yesterday, she dropped a one-line text announcing that she had just received an unofficial job offer from a positive prospect. Thank You so much, Father!  
• What also deeply blessed me was the near-immediate answer to this prayer for Julie on my prayer walk at Tower Hill yesterday. I cannot capture the intimacy of that prayer time in words; I want to describe one "vision" I had of You. It was more than a vision, though. I also felt You.  (Cue the tears here....)  As I walked, I envisioned You walking next to me, saying nothing but just looking at me with those amazing eyes, and then, still saying nothing, taking my hand. Thank You for that beautiful, *touching* experience. You are real, and no one can ever convince me otherwise.
• More answered prayer: I received a letter today from the Retirement Board stating that my retirement date is officially February 19, 2024. The letter was dated May 13, 2024 (Monday) and signed by Stephanie, with whom I had spoken back in March. I admit to being still skeptical, and I called my other contact, Daren, to confirm it. If this is true, however, it could be a financial relief *IF* the retirement checks come sooner as a result. Thank You for this, too.
• Another possible positive answered prayer: In a conversation with Tatiana from the Department of Unemployment Assistance (DUA), she asked me to clarify my disputed version of my discharge from my job. I was somewhat emotional, not crying but with emphatic descriptions of the course of events and questions about why I would ever do what I am accused of doing. She was professional and yet supportive. I cannot yet be sure, but when I checked the DUA site today, she might have made me eligible for some unemployment benefits. If so ( or even if not ), thank You for the opportunity to tell my story and maybe for a little cash cushion. If it comes through, You will get some of it, directed to The Journey.
  
• Then come the job possibilities.   I thank You for these at the same time that I ask for Your clear direction. Am I being greedy, or am I responding to the ideas of 1) using my gifts and talents for others and for You and 2) having additional money to share and invest in Your work in the world. You know what I would miss most, Abba? Walking with Bailey. He has become my buddy! I would also miss volunteering at the Belmont Community School, although that may resolve itself by October, when I would want to resume those precious visits.

I know I could go on and on. You always answer prayer. It isn't always the answer I want, of course. (In fact, I have begun to wonder about the entire administrative leave-to-discharge/firing thing. It feels a little, or even a lot, like Joseph's "Man meant it for evil but God meant it for good" experience.)  More importantly, I feel much
closer to You because of this (relatively weak!) suffering.  

Abba God, I don't love You enough, but I love You.  Amen.