Deep Breath

 

Hi, Abba.  My head is cluttered.  I think that may be the propulsion behind my effort to declutter a little bit today.  There is such a lot, such a large number, of issues swirling around my life that I do what many people seem to do: ignore them all.

• Bailey and I went for a 20-minute walk in the drizzle at Davis Hill just a little while ago.  That felt good!
• I watched ~52 minutes of the Recall Training video done by The Beagle Lady today.  That felt good, too.
• I am still waiting for the grievance decision.  I suspect I will be waiting for a long time, if history is a good predictor.
• The job interview scheduled for this past Monday was rescheduled because the interviewer called in sick.  It is now a virtual interview for this coming Monday at 11 a.m.  May Your will be done.
• In the meantime, I need to respond to at least three job offers in order to satisfy unemployment rules...IF they have even approved my application.

See what I mean, Abba?  And this does not even take into account the party for my MIL on Saturday, or the Community Dinner next Friday, or teaching Sunday School, or whatever pops up and requires flexibility.  

But You are always sufficient.  You are enough.  My "God Shot" today might have been the subtext of the last chapters of 1 Samuel and the first chapters of 2 Samuel--that it is not only entirely possible but also entirely usual that people *think* they are following, honoring, and obeying You but they are not.  Some of this is attributable to not listening closely enough to You or going ahead with what they think is what You want.  So much of that very same thinking is present in this time, this culture.  Help me, Abba, to know You so well that I know what You would want and to listen to You so carefully that I know what You are commanding.  Please.

Amen.