Taking Every Thought Captive

"We take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ."  2 Corinthians 10:5

Abba, so many thoughts about the hearing this morning on the Step 3 grievance.  I know that I have cried out to you for justice.  I continue to cry out for justice.  I believe that You revealed a few things this morning that I want to capture here for Your help in assessing them for truth:

1) The basic difference of recollection, which I have difficulty not calling an outright lie, involves the charge that I "ripped off" a hijab. That just did not happen.  If I start from that point of difference, much of the subsequent actions and disclosures fit into the puzzle more fully.

2) Near the beginning of the hearing, the Assistant COO/Compliance was asked for her recollection of the events of the day.  She struggled.  Of course, that day is now 10 months in the past; I have to concede that.  One of the things that she emphasized, however, struck me: The ACOO stated that the person was very upset *and that they spent a lot of time discussing the many instances of discrimination in DMH and at WRCH.*  To me it seemed that the focus of the discussion was not on my specific interaction with this person but on the general atmosphere of discrimination that the person had experienced over a long period of time.

3) The DMH person handling that side of the hearing (WT) emphasized how long the process of investigation often takes.  He claimed, admitting that he did not have any documentation, that the investigation and the Show Cause hearing were ongoing and in process well before the publication of the article.  This troubled me because it is a claim that cannot be verified.  It also leads into the next point.

4) Once the article was published, the process went remarkably quickly.  Reasoning that the article only came out in the July 12 edition of the journal, and that people might not have read it immediately, it seems that the intervening week and a half would cover the discovery of the article and discussion about how to address this revelation.

The following is my opinion only: Even the witness's statement described a pleasant and even complimentary interaction between the person and me.  If, as I noted earlier, the person complained more broadly about DMH and WRCH--remember, she was initially not inclined per ACOO report to file a complaint--then I might be the scapegoat to prove that DMH/WRCH were addressing workplace violence and discrimination seriously.  Reportedly, the HRO encouraged the person to file a complaint, but what was not said was whether the complaint would be just against me or more generally against the department and the hospital.  (NB The HRO had come to me on the down-low to give me a heads-up that this situation was happening, and not the way he had anticipated.)

Well, God, as with everything, the situation is fully in Your hands.  I am safe there no matter what happens.  There is no place I would rather be.

I love You, too, so much--and not enough.

Amen.