Heartbroken and Disheartened

 

God!  My heart is broken, at the very least bruised, because of the disillusionment of my elder daughter with her "Christian" employer and the current evangelical Christian world.  My younger daughter long ago became disillusioned with conservative evangelicalism.  That disillusionment alone does not hurt me.  They both assure me that they still love Jesus.  Rather, it is the decision of my eldest to live with her boyfriend.  Without going into all the details that You already know, the arrangement may or may not include sex.  That is between You and them.  It is the raw, blunt pain in her announcement that she will not work for a faith-based institution ever again, and her cooling attachment to the church in her city, seemingly because of hurtful attitudes and maybe comments.

I feel like we--You and I--are fighting a losing battle, Lord.  I know You win.  I am counting on that.  But I feel bad.  What has Your church done to Your reputation?  

Last week's sermon about confrontations with the Jewish (read: religious) leaders hit a weak spot.  So many believers, at times including my own DH, have unquestioningly accepted the proclamations of the Christian leaders of our times.  Woe to those leaders who have mislead, or lead astray, Your people!

Would You consider an intervention of a miraculous sort, Abba?  I know that You will not interfere with a person's free will, and I also know that You soften and harden hearts.  Please soften hearts in my family.  These are awful times when injustice, untruth, and frank evil are rampant.  But You win.

Amen!