Hey, Abba! DH is too close to home for a long post. Just checking in to say I love You and I am feeling very much supported by You. You speak to me often these days, I think. Don't allow me to misinterpret Your messages.
'Til next time....
Help me to be more gentle with my increasingly disorganized husband. He is not completely disorganized; don't get me wrong. I get frustrated when he is illogical, when he misunderstands me, when he focuses on minutiae and misses the bigger points and issues. I am afraid that he might have encroaching age-related cognitive decline, and I am disappointed in his lack of ambition and direction in anything other than his woodworking business. That is not entirely true: he is committed to the refugee ministry, too. However, he seems to be neglecting our home and its upkeep and maintenance, especially on projects that I am unable to do.
So that is my confession, Abba, for today. :( Today, I am preparing for our church dinner. I need to get moving soon. My YD has distracted me with her dental anxiety, which is not a complaint. BTW, Abba, please calm her anxiety and grant her the peace and comfort of Your presence. That is something I typically would forget to bring to You--stupidly, I admit, but You care for even the smallest details of our lives and relationships.
Maybe that is my "God Shot" for today....
I love You, too. Gotta run!
From today's psalms:
"I trust in [Your] unfailing love for ever and ever....And I will hope in Your name, for Your name is good." (Psalsm 52:8b and 9b)
Truth and justice, O Lord my God, are the cries of my heart! Amen.
"We praise You for the way sin bends to serve Your ultimate will. It never has the last word, God, and that is so comforting."
I could not have needed that truth more. Her first statement addressed "Your sovereignty over timing." In my readings/listenings, it is clearer to me than ever that our human version of "all things work together for good for those who love God" is often distorted, if not outright corrupted, by our humanity. Many of Your people died believing in You. Many suffered and continue to suffer. Sometimes it is years, if ever, that we see Your deliverance here on earth. Will that be so for me? Will I see justice? I will continue to cry out for justice just as Your people have done for millennia. I will also be content to trust Your sovereignty over timing.
All things for Your will, Abba. Amen!
"We take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ." 2 Corinthians 10:5
Abba, so many thoughts about the hearing this morning on the Step 3 grievance. I know that I have cried out to you for justice. I continue to cry out for justice. I believe that You revealed a few things this morning that I want to capture here for Your help in assessing them for truth:
1) The basic difference of recollection, which I have difficulty not calling an outright lie, involves the charge that I "ripped off" a hijab. That just did not happen. If I start from that point of difference, much of the subsequent actions and disclosures fit into the puzzle more fully.
2) Near the beginning of the hearing, the Assistant COO/Compliance was asked for her recollection of the events of the day. She struggled. Of course, that day is now 10 months in the past; I have to concede that. One of the things that she emphasized, however, struck me: The ACOO stated that the person was very upset *and that they spent a lot of time discussing the many instances of discrimination in DMH and at WRCH.* To me it seemed that the focus of the discussion was not on my specific interaction with this person but on the general atmosphere of discrimination that the person had experienced over a long period of time.
3) The DMH person handling that side of the hearing (WT) emphasized how long the process of investigation often takes. He claimed, admitting that he did not have any documentation, that the investigation and the Show Cause hearing were ongoing and in process well before the publication of the article. This troubled me because it is a claim that cannot be verified. It also leads into the next point.
4) Once the article was published, the process went remarkably quickly. Reasoning that the article only came out in the July 12 edition of the journal, and that people might not have read it immediately, it seems that the intervening week and a half would cover the discovery of the article and discussion about how to address this revelation.
The following is my opinion only: Even the witness's statement described a pleasant and even complimentary interaction between the person and me. If, as I noted earlier, the person complained more broadly about DMH and WRCH--remember, she was initially not inclined per ACOO report to file a complaint--then I might be the scapegoat to prove that DMH/WRCH were addressing workplace violence and discrimination seriously. Reportedly, the HRO encouraged the person to file a complaint, but what was not said was whether the complaint would be just against me or more generally against the department and the hospital. (NB The HRO had come to me on the down-low to give me a heads-up that this situation was happening, and not the way he had anticipated.)
Well, God, as with everything, the situation is fully in Your hands. I am safe there no matter what happens. There is no place I would rather be.
I love You, too, so much--and not enough.
Amen.
