Adonai, You abhor evil. What confuses me about this trait of Yours is how You separate out hating evil from being angry at people who practice evil--which would be all of us at one time or another. Or am I not getting the point here? Perhaps being angry at someone who does evil is not wrong. Scripture seems filled with Your anger at Your wayward followers, while at the same time emphasizing Your compassion, forgiveness, and love toward them. My mind is exploding.
In my own situation regarding the false accusation and all the consequences of it, Abba, I am having a lot of trouble straddling this line. I am enraged at the damage done to me by the management of the interaction with a Muslim woman. As I read (or listen to) Your word in Deuteronomy, I see that the testimony of *more than one* witness is required when an accusation is made, and that did not happen here. In fact, I believe that the witness's testimony, while probably not malicious in intent, was affected by the victim's interaction with him prior to his giving his statement. BUT of course, there are two problems with this observation: one, I have no documentary proof that this happened or affected the testimony, and two, the state does not follow Your rules, or even the rules of courts and laws and trials. (I might get fairer treatment in a courtroom, but these days, even that is uncertain.)
You can also see why my heart has chosen the theme of JUSTICE for this year. Justice can be risky if I deserve punishment. Here is another balancing act: justice and forgiveness. (Deep thoughts) It seems to me, in individual up to global venues, that justice is not valued anymore. Winning is the thing!
"Ask Him for wisdom. Ask Him for heart change." I need both, God. I need them both in buckets, large and overflowing buckets. I want so much to represent You well, even in this weirdo time of trial.
Love You.
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