Silence

God, my head won't focus on a theme for today.  I think perhaps that means my role is to remain silent in prayer and LISTEN.  Distraction is a real thing.  Just sitting and letting my thoughts float by as though on a lazy stream (sometimes a rushing river!) reveals how many things are polluting my mind.  

I worry.

I plan.

I regret.

Sometimes I confess.

I catch myself in some of the distorted thinking patterns that I call out in others; the worst ones are probably thinking that You either don't know what is going on in the world or that You are going to (maybe obligated to) fix those problems in this world.   Neither one of these beliefs is true.  You know.  You might even be allowing these problems intentionally to punish people (You have done that in the past) or to illustrate the contrast between Your ways and men's ways.  

Recently, I read somewhere that You have even chosen specific people, including me, to live in this time for Your purposes.  So, God, please show me what Your purpose is for me in this time and please make it as obvious as my oblivious mind might need.  I don't want to miss it.

Amen.