Testify to Truth

 

Abba God, Adonai, I am (like Jesus, a little bit) anticipating the upcoming hearing with hostile questioners and a possibly or probably unsympathetic "arbiter."  May I honor You by speaking only the truth and speaking the truth in love?  These past years -- I have lost count of them -- have been difficult and still, through all of it, I have "lived in the goodness of God" as we sang at church this morning.  I sensed that the attorney (Alex) wanted a less spiritual answer to his question about what I wanted from this hearing and the preceding situation.  You have been faithful, and despite the dance steps it took to achieve things like retirement, insurance, unemployment, and even employment, today I can reflect on having more than I had before.  What I want is the chance to make the relationship right, to apologize, to offer grace and consolation to a person who was offended by my inadvertent behavior.  Not what he was expecting!  (I also expect that mine was a mere toothpick of a straw that broke the back of an offended person already carrying the heavier straws of many previous offenses.)

My heart wants above all else to glorify you in this interaction.  In my own nature, I am prone to rambling, being sarcastic, speaking impulsively, and generally making a mess of the situation.  Keep a watch on my words?  May your will be done.  If there is any recompense of any sort, You will get a portion of it.  That is not a bribe; that is my offering if there is to be justice and grace on behalf of a person who felt that I had been disrespectful to her religion and her culture.

What a time to be alive, Lord God.  May I hear You with my deaf ears and see You with my weak eyes, watching out for the confounding noises and optical illusions that sometimes hide You.  Amen!