Having gone to Pennsylvania to celebrate Amy's upcoming 30th birthday (tomorrow, 9/23/2020), I am stuck at home awaiting the results of a COVID-19 test--but it does not feel like being stuck. I am, frankly, enjoying the random accomplishments of the day, including this one.
So, Lord, in the interest and the spirit of praying, I am trying to focus in this age of anxiety, with the pandemic and the politic, on the eternal and the spiritual. Today's YouVersion speaks of peace vs. worry. How completely appropriate!! I still wish to be informed. I haven't quite figured out, though, how to get the information I need to read Your will in the situations without worrying. It's all bad news, or so it seems on the surface.
But You are not a superficial God. You work in the deeps. (Is that a word? Yep, I looked it up.) Behind and underneath all that is going on in the world, there is the "invisible war" going on in the spiritual realm. That is the title of the devotional I am reading, and it is also SO completely appropriate to these times.
The struggle for me is the internal anger and anguish that robs my own peace. I also want to argue people into understanding the truth. Persuasion, right? Hah. Even You have chosen not to push people into Truth, and You are the Truth.
Speaking of Truth, what are you doing behind the scenes with Tue? I am curious, and I am waiting for Your opening. If I may ask something, please put reins on me and a muzzle on my mouth. I tend to think more of myself and my ability to know what to say and when to say it than is warranted.
I think I will go finish that book The Lotus and The Cross. Bless my reading and understanding? I don't think it captures Tue very well, or his father, but I wonder how many "denominations" of Buddhism there are, similar to how many Christian denominations exist. And please bless my own representation of You. I am afraid to sound judgmental, and I fear that many representatives have done harm to Your message but not, of course, to You. No one can harm You (despite what the president tried to pin on his opponent). Nevertheless, I don't want to be one of those people who turns others away from You.
Love You so very much and still not enough.
