Top Secret

Lord God, I am becoming either very irritable OR irritated by my husband.  I will try to outline the issues at a later time, but in this post I am confessing.  It has been very hard.  I don't know whether he is just making stupid decisions lately or whether he is losing some of his mental sharpness and speed or whether I am the one at fault.  It isn't pretty.  Please, please help me.  How to react or respond in a loving manner and not be obsequious or blindly accepting of certain choices and behaviors is the challenge, I think.  It would likely get old to be wrong most of the time.  For me to have to be so emphatic in order to have him take me seriously is--the word for the first day of our New York graduation trip--disrespectful.  I don't want to be that way!  It seems, however, that making my point in any less forceful way is impossible.  In the language of deafness, his threshold of hearing is pretty high.

In Jesus's name, please make my marriage stronger!  Amen.

Mixed Day

Lord, I started to write about today, but it was too upsetting.  I get lots of positive praise from the patients, and then I get a really accusatory email--actually, several--from the director of social work about not telling her about discharges that were not even 24 hours "old."  

So, I am just going to go to bed.  If it is time for me to leave DMH, would You make a way?  

In Jesus's name~~Amen.